OK, these stupid things are my guilty pleasure…but I rarely ever post them. This one made me laugh though, and I couldn’t resist.
And since it didn’t show up like it was supposed to, here’s the link so you can do it yourself: Link
I got my Gwyddon altar set up last weekend, in time for Monday’s Beltaine ritual. I had a great time!!! Things didn’t go quite as smoothly as I would have liked (I tore my robe before the ritual even started. I really wish I hadn’t cut the fabric straight. :() and there were some issues, like the ritual leader losing her internet connection after the preliminaries (the wonders of online rituals) but all in all, it went great. There actually WAS a great amount of energy transfer/movement, despite it being an online ritual.
Monday night I had a long talk with someone very close to me…and it truly was beautiful and amazing and all of that. 
Actually, hes’ been chatty all week and I am just thrilled about that. It’s a rare thing. 
This week has been interesting…after Beltaine (I guess I got that ‘beginning of summer’ energy and all that) and due to less sleep than I normally get, and probably some dehydration as well, I have wanted even more to get OUT of here. I’ve been feeling trapped in this house for a while, but I really, really, need to get a place of my own.
Of course there are a lot of concerns, financial concerns being a huge one, and some smaller stuff, like what is going to happen to my pet chickens? But I talked to my mom about it and I feel a lot better about moving out…I am hoping for sometime this summer/fall. Even just looking for a place is a bit of a relief, as I know I’m not really stuck here.
I was offered (and gratefully accepted!) full time at work. When the benefits kick in (which is around September I think) they truly rock, and I’m excited about that. And of course it’s more hours.
This weekend I’m going to visit my dad and his half of the family. It will truly be a ‘fly by night’ trip, as I am leaving Friday after work (won’t get there till probably 9 PM) and coming home Sunday. After my first week of full time, this is going to be a strain on me, but it’ll be worth it.
I’ve had a busy weekend. On Saturday I went to a charity “test drive a car and we’ll give $20 to the booster club” event. I dragged my neighbor along because I didn’t want to go alone. It was cool. My coworker had talked me into it.
I made my robe and started my altar cloth (I think I’ll paint, instead of embroidering, some blue butterflies on it. I’m not sure how well that will work, so I’m going to test it on a scrap first.) That has to get done sometime this week, and I’m hoping that my bowl will come this week (crossing my fingers! It’s coming from Canada so it doesn’t look likely, I really hope it does.) If it comes this week, then next weekend means a trip to AC Moore to get some candles, hopefully a chalice and candle holders, and altar setup (which will be a process…it involves cleaning out the space where the altar is going to be, then naming all of the tools, etc.)
Beltaine is my first ever Gwyddon group ritual!! I’m so excited!!!
Tomorrow I take my car in to get it inspected, and on Thursday I have therapy. I think I need it, LOL. I’ve been lagging on my therapy homework, admittedly; I just haven’t been anxious all that much, and so I haven’t been doing it. I’ve actually had a really great month! Even though there were situations which would have normally caused me a great deal of stress. Still, it will be a busy week.
After Beltaine things should slow down. I’m looking forward to it!
My incense burner came today, and of course, it needed work to make it usable but that just goes towards making it MINE so I don’t complain too much. Though I wish the glaze didn’t need to be drilled out of the handles. Still, it’s beautiful! I also got some mugwort, and some more desert sage. I’m HOPING that my new tarot cards and Celtic Women CD will come this week. I anxiously await both of them, however I don’t think that Amazon has shipped them yet. *goes off to check*
Oh boy it’s been a week. It wasn’t too bad, all in all. My anxiety has been coming back this week. I have a therapy session next Thursday…it’s been over a month since I’ve had a really rough time of it, but occasionally it seems, my mind decides to throw some good ol’ fashioned panic my way just to say “Hey! HEY!! I’m still here! Look at me mommy! I can still make your life hell!”
*sigh* I really need to get on the stick about my journaling. It escapes my mind on a lot of days now, but it really does help me.
Since I really did jump headfirst into my Gwyddon studies, yesterday I went shopping and got some lovely gray material to make my robe out of. I also ordered some more things that I need for my altar…so I should have it set up by Beltaine, I hope. (I’d love to have an altar set up in time for our Beltaine ritual. I have been very busy…but I’m really enjoying it.
Last night I was a busy bee, trying to chat with two people online, interpret a Rune reading (it was already done by someone else. A friend just wanted a second opinion on interpretation.) and buy some supplies all while chatting with another friend on the phone. GAH!!!! Wearing myself out like that right before bed does not help my stress levels any.
I also haven’t been drinking enough, I realize that. I have noticed something: I seem to be much more anxious and depressed when I start to get dehydrated. That is another thing to look out for, and I really do need to be better about that.
Tonight is a designated “night off” as I’m starting to feel the effects of wearing myself out. I really need to be careful about that. I do think that keeping busy keeps me feeling a lot better…at first. After the “high” of “OMG I GOT SO MUCH ACCOMPLISHED” wears off, it becomes a drag. When calling to make an a appointment to get my car inspected starts to seem like a real chore, I know I’m overdoing it again. And I can not afford to do that right now.
This weekend is designated “robe sewing”, and I also have a paper to write for my Gwyddon studies. I have been meaning to get that paper done for a few days now, but the extra time to think on it has given me extra insight. Still, it’s happening this weekend. I’m really hoping that the pattern I have for a robe works out well enough.
Time is escaping me. *rotfl* It’s Friday, but I feel like it’s Tuesday. It’ll be a miracle if I don’t get up and try to go to work tomorrow.
Total and complete spring cleaning. My house was totally icky, physically, energetically…everything.
I got sick of it, so, when my mom went to work today, I set to work: I did laundry. I scrubbed and mopped floors. I scrubbed out the bathtub and sink. I washed dishes, dried dishes and put away dishes. I vacuumed.
When I got done with all of that, I opened every door, window and cabinet door which could reasonably be left open (I did not open the lower cabinets…galley kitchen+open cabinets=pain). I opened the closets.
I went around the entire house and misted with a water which contained a mixture of frankincense, lemon and thyme oils. Then I smudged the entire house with desert sage, while chanting “The Earth is our Mother” (It seemed appropriate). I collapsed on the bed, then I did some energy work to ‘realign’ the house. I misted again.
I’m exhausted. The rest of today is designated “couch potato”. But my house feels so CLEAN!!! It’s…peace. Ahhhhh
Ickiness be GONE!!!!
Did I mention how much I love my laptop? 
Since Capital One cut my credit card statement, I went ahead and ordered a bag for my laptop, a new Athame for my work in the Gwyddoniad, and a bunch of incense from Wild Berry and Morning star. It ALL arrived yesterday (I had ordered it on Tuesday!). I have no idea how this happened. I was shocked! I thought I might have one or two things by the end of the week, but not all of it!
I love the laptop bag. It’s teh awesome. The dagger I wasn’t too impressed with. I paid about $40 for it and it appears to be worth about $10…it had some ugly plastic lanyard in the scabbard, the first thing I did was rip that out, clean the scabbard and replace the ugly plastic lanyard with some blood red ribbon. I then cleaned the glue off of the guard with my Dremmel (yea, real nice quality there).
It took a lot of work, but I got the energy to somewhere decent, too.
Thursday night was my Flamekeeping shift, and I made my wand. I really did stumble across the perfect stick to use, and it’s gorgeous!!! It’s also the only wand I’ve ever had that I can actually direct energy with. WHOOT!
Last night my power went out, so I went for a walk. When I came back, the power was still out, so my neighbor offered me some dinner (she has a gas stove, I don’t) which I gratefully accepted. I then spent a couple of hours talking to “Uncle” Doug about weapons and weapons collecting, until the power came back on. All in all a good night.
The Wild Berry incense, much to my dismay is very strong. I react badly to strong scents, so I don’t know how that will work out. I wasn’t feeling well yesterday, so I’m going to try burning some more downstairs today, to see how it goes. I’m going to try the cones, because I do not want to try them for the first time in ritual and find out they make me puke! I have a ton of it though, and I may pawn some off on “Uncle” Doug.
I am VERY impressed with Morning Star. It’s LOVELY. And cheap that’s a great thing about it. I am thrilled with it, and will definitely be ordering more. Highly recommend.
I finally got a lot of work done on that Teens and Paganism project for TC. I meant to do it last weekend, but stuff came up and I never did get to it. Today I did all that, and went for a walk. I really feel like I’ve accomplished something today. That’s always a good feeling.
I also realized that I haven’t done any work on my ‘worry sheets’ for about a week. I haven’t really been all that anxious! This is a good thing! It means I’m improving, at the very least. I have a good feeling about things to come.
Thomas is slowly doing better, his creatine and BUN levels are going down, but he had to come off of the Thyroglobulin and will probably have to go on dialysis. More details here.
Tonight’s plan: do my weekly ritual, and then curl up on the couch and watch Keeping Up Appearances (I love British TV.)
Well I did some more work on my Gwyddon studies, and I’m tired, I’m really glad it’s Friday. It has been an interesting week. On my agenda for this weekend is to work on a writing project that I agreed to do, the Teens and Paganism project over on The Cauldron. I’ve been busy, but I really need to get working on this.
I love my new laptop, and the WEBCAM. I love the webcam especially because I was able to talk to my Kitten with it. Seeing him happy (he laughs his ass off at everything…I don’t think I’ve ever SEEN anyone with such humor) has done wonders for me, I think.
I’m doing a lot better with the anxiety, but today has been a busy week, I’m going to need to take it easy this weekend.
My new laptop is here. It took a few hours of frustration but it’s all up and running, and has all my Antivirus/spyware/firewall stuff on it now.
I’m laying on the couch watching Family Guy and blogging like a good little techy blogger!!
These are called ‘laptops’ for a reason, lol. The keyboard and touchpad are definitely not so easy to use unless they are at a certain height. Both the flat keyboard and the touchpad are taking a little getting used to…
No more deciding between chatting and Sunday night cartoons!!!
I just wish there was an outlet closer to the couch. *grins*
(Also known as “Why I need the new laptop”)
I was going to save this post for later, but what the hell. Things are moving a LOT faster now than I intended at first, and I’m not unhappy about that!!! So here goes!!!
As you may or may not know, I have been working on my own path, which I have called Pathway of the Gods. My original intention was to develop Pathway of the Gods into a viable and workable path, to teach, and I have done a LOT of work towards that end. I am not displeased to announce that this is not going to happen.
During my time working diligently on Pathway I have been learning more and more about The Gwyddonic Order. The more I learned, and got to know the High Priestess of the Order, the more Pathway corresponded…or at times, collided with Gwyddonics. At first there were some differences in belief which kept me from jumping in, but as I grew and learned in my own work, those differences started to rapidly disappear.
So with much thought and much excitement I would like to announce:
I am joining the Gwyddonic Order!!!!
I can barely contain my joy. Seriously!!!
All of the work I did on Pathway was not for naught, however. I have learned more through my work with it than I could have learned without it, and that has done much to bring me towards this end. It will continue to be a big part of my personal practice, outside of the Gwyddoniad.
And, as for the laptop, well. Due to distance between students, the Gwyddon lessons and rituals are done online. I can’t hardly have ritual in my mudroom, can I? So, I finally have an excuse to buy that new laptop I’ve always wanted!!!!
Wish me luck!!!
